Rambled Egg

Must try and keep this updated..

So I decided I want to buy a place of my own instead, after talking it over with my parents. They've pursuaded me to wait until July though, when I'm due a payrise. To avoid living on a shoestring. So thats that for now.

L went back to uni at the weekend. Time with her out of my hair will do me good I think.

I'm starting to notice other folk again, which I'm sure is a healthy sign.

I banged my head on the floor at kungfu last night.. I was doing press ups with someone holding my legs in the air, and also with someone else doing press ups with their legs on my back! Now I'm not that great at press ups anyway. Then my instructor pressed down on my back too to make me work harder and I collapsed into a heap, banging my forehead on the floor.

I have a lump there today, I hope it doesnt bruise or I'll have to quickly grow an emergency fringe!

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I've decided I'm going to move out, into rented accommodation.

I know a place that is *perfect* for me.

I'm going to tell the folks tonight, wish me luck!

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Maybe I should start writing again, I can now see a light at the end of this tunnel.

For the past few weeks I've not been able to see how I can get around this and have been trying mostly not to think about things. And occupying time in which I might by getting so drunk I don't know what day it is. I've been treated like shit, but perhaps I deserved it, and perhaps that needed to happen. I always knew deep-down that it was wrong, but always kept it at the back of my mind so as not to spoil my own fun. Now its come back and hit me right in the face and at the worst possible time too.

I can't even look at her anymore, and I can't stand to see her with him.

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Not updating as much these days, largely because the page is now blocked outside of lunchtime which I use to go on the board.

So my first week as a singleton is now over, it seems to have gone by so slowly. It’ll take some getting used to being alone again on most weeknights. I do miss him, but still believe I made the right decision. I went over to stay with Lauren this weekend. It was just what I needed, and it was good to get away and stick my head in the sand for a while. We stayed in both Friday and Saturday night and had dvd fests. We got through four bottles of wine between us. We went to Llandudno on Saturday, it rained all day but we still had fun. And then yesterday we went to Beaumaris. So it was quite a chilled out weekend really, we need to talk but I’d rather do it in a while when things have settled down a bit.

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I am talking to myself now.........

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I didn’t do much at the weekend really, it was nice to have a nearly-full group out again on Saturday. And on Sunday night Martin graced us with his presence and his new lady friend, Wendy. We don’t see him much these days so that was cool. We visited the chip shop for the third week in a row, its just too tempting. I had a nice portion of chips and curry then we all went to Graham’s to play with his teddies (seriously) and Damian read us a bedtime story.

I spent most of yesterday trying to round up the troops to go for a meal sometime this week, but not everyone could be free on the same night. So we’re going to compromise and go out twice instead! Wednesday night and Friday night, yay! I’m having an overdue haircut on Friday too, I can’t wait it really needs doing.

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I think my cough is finally starting to leave me.. although I think I must have pulled a muscle in my side from it. Its so sore, I imagine this is how it feels to have a broken rib. I'm feeling a little less glum today, still totally mixed up though.

This weekend should be good, Damian, Becky, Ady and Rach are all coming home. Don't know what the plan is yet but it'll be good to see them all again. It'll help me take my made off stuff for a while at least. That'll be a relief.

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